Well, here we at and its almost 8pm and little miss is having her after supper bottle and I am having my supper. I haven't written because its been a bit tumultuous around here with my work and with family I didn't want to come off as whiny. haha 

D has been gone for 17 days now in a row. They've been having tonnes of issues.  I've seen him for about 10 minutes the entire time. I believe our daughter has only seen him for over an hour. Also last week was my birthday and I hardly got to speak with him. In the mean time he did send me for a day at the spa and it was rather amazing. But I have also been thinking of ways to save money as no one knows whats going to happen with the economy and D has to have surgery. not to mention he has a nasty spending habit. So I have started getting the bountiful baskets every other weekend. It's more than enough fruit and produce for little miss and I for two weeks. and I spend about only $20 a week on it. which is great! saves from the 50-65 dollar bill every two weeks for produce from the store. I've also been going to a local farm for eggs and other produce that isn't in my basket. its pretty awesome.

Also lately, I decided to join a support group. I think that in a way it will help me cope with D being gone so much and with his position in the oilfield. Lately it has not been pleasant.. normally I can handle him being gone. But our daughter is growing so fast and he's not here to see it. I guess that's whats getting to me the most. This group is called "Strong Wyoming Women". Its a great group of women who are just like me. Semi Single Moms. We offer just an ear to vent to and hopefully soon a get together. I would love nothing more really! I don't have that many friends here and it would be great to gain some that are go through similar things that I do on a daily basis. Although I have noticed that many of them are stay at home moms which is great and I applaud them but I am also working full time. I would love to be a stay at home mom but to be perfectly honest I would miss the work force and having my own income. 

Oh well. to another day.. 

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I can only begin to understand what someone may think that means.. A semi single mom.. Well, in my case anyway it means that my daughters father is here and in the picture but not here all the time. I work full time and then come home and take care of our daughter full time. Even if her father is home, a lot of times I am still her primary care taker. He will get up with her at night but sometimes its a fight because we are both tired. Not that I'm necessarily complaining mind you, I am just finding it harder than I thought to raise a child with both parents in the energy sector.

D. even admitted to me the other night that I am a part time single mom. I've been so horribly bad at being patient lately. He's been out for almost 2 weeks and just go to casing yesterday. He was only able to be home with us for a day but it was a good 24 hours. Good as in I am now an engaged semi single mom. It was really hard to watch him go back out. He misses so much. Our little girl is getting teeth and also she is starting to define herself as a roller. The nice thing is that while D has been gone I've been able to get our little bug on a sleep routine.. YAY! that means after 830/9pm I am on my own to do glorious things! Like cleaning! and still trying to put the house away after we moved in a month and a half ago! and you know, eat dinner! Now if I can only get everyone on a schedule of eating on time and going to bed early. With work I have been so stressed that I come home and all I can really handle is taking care of little girl. That is all going to change soon! I have a date with Richard Simmons starting next week! Goal is to raise a beautiful child and to lose 45lbs to be down to my ideal weight. D loves me just the way I am but I need to do this for myself and my health. YAY RICHARD SIMMONS!!